All Paths To Me

It used to really bother me when people would say they hoped I found what I was looking for or ask me if I was going to find myself in my travels- it probably still would bother me, but no-one has said it to me in a while! I never felt like I was lost, or missing any part of myself that I had to go out searching for, so it somehow felt like they were saying that I felt inadequate because I wanted to go on an adventure. 

 I realised talking to a friend yesterday though, how different my life has become because of my travels- how different I have become. The life I have now is nothing like where I thought I would be now if you had asked me 10 years ago. 

AND both are ok. I would have still been stronger, wiser, deeper if I had kept going on the path I was on then- it just would have been a totally different version of me! So I don't think I am 'finding' anything as such and was certainly not looking for this version of me as I didn't even know she could exist, but I am exploring myself and discovering one (or more) versions of the potentials I had. 

We all have every possibility inside of us, but by choosing some things over other, or not choosing some options, we only get the chance to fully develop bits and pieces of that. And that is completely fine- necessary in fact! Trying to be everything across your whole life would likely leave you with very little defined anything in the way of an actual sense of self!

Obviously, there are paths I have not taken or have been pushed off or have moved away from. We all do that across our lives. The paths we DO take are what mould us- where we shine a light into certain corners of our potential and discover what lies within. 

I could never, would never, have dreamed 10 years ago that I would be cycling home to my apartment in Nepal under a full moon (in winter!!!!), grinning like a (cold) maniac because I was so happy at simply being here. I could not have gone looking for this if I had tried because I had to get on the path to here to be here. 

So live your path fully. Immerse yourself into your potential, exploring the "who you are" that your choices lead you to. Our growth, our happiness, our life is in front of us no matter which path we are on.

♥